依然爱你

Today, I have this urge to share a song.


一闪一闪亮晶晶 留下岁月的痕迹 我的世界的中心 依然还是你 一年一年又一年 飞逝仅在一转眼 唯一永远不改变 是不停地改变 我不像以前的自己 你也有点不像你 但在我的眼中你的笑 依然的美丽 日子只能往前走 一个方向顺时钟 不知道能爱多久 所以要让你懂 我依然爱你 就是唯一的退路 我依然珍惜 时时刻刻的幸福 你每个呼吸 每个动作 每个表情 到最后 一定会 依然爱你                       我不像以前的自己 你也有点不像你 但在我的眼中你的笑 依然的美丽 日子只能往前走 一个方向顺时钟 不知道能爱多久 所以要让你懂 我依然爱你 就是唯一的退路 我依然珍惜 时时刻刻的幸福 你每个呼吸 每个动作 每个表情 到最后 一定会 依然爱你 我依然爱你 或许是命中注定 多年之后偶然 偶然都无法代替 那些时光 是我这辈子最美好的 那些回忆 依然无法忘记 我依然爱你 就是唯一的退路 我依然珍惜 时时刻刻的幸福 你每个呼吸 每个动作 每个表情 到最后 一定会 依然爱你 你每个呼吸 每个动作 每个表情 到最后 一定会 依然爱你

依然爱你 by my idol, 王力宏. 

In my opinion, this song is made for couples who have been together for several years. I find it meaningful as it has a tat of reality in it. It reminds one that people are constantly changing as time goes by. Couples need to adapt to each other's changes, accommodate differences and stay committed. Time can be harsh. Without faith, people tend to lose track as the clock ticks. They forget what appreciation, cherish and love is all about.
I feel that couples who are in long term relationships are remarkable, especially those whom you see love in their eyes even it has been 10, 15 years down the road. I ever told Ivan that he could use this as a proposal song. It's like even after years of dating (actually only 2 years), he still loves her and wants to continue doing it for the rest of his life. However, he chose 'A Thousand Years' instead. Boo! hahaha. Whatever song he chose, I still wish him an everlasting marriage.

xoxo, ping.

:(

Have been pretty moody lately. Feeling insecure, dubious, plus other negative emotions which I have no adjectives for.

That night was perhaps the first time sillyb got so angry with me. I don't remember much of the details as I was buried in alcohol and tears but, for a long time again, I feel the fear of losing someone important. 

I felt that the alcohol had made me dig up those emotions which I have bottled up for a long long time. It made me face things which I ran away from, or should I say, things which I refused to be affected by. I remember Auntie Xiuzhen telling me that I am good at concealing my true self and asked why is there a need to. I told her that nobody liked my true self. This is a truth which I learned as I was growing up. So I decided to change. So all these while, I thought that I was trying to be a better person, I try to suppress my discontent and accept things which I used to reject, trying to make life easier for everyone. Her words made me wonder, am i trying too hard?

What should I do?